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Havent summed up my words for this entry..
I'll just write whatever comes into my mind..
So.. Life hasnt been pretty sweet for me..
Have gone thru lotsa things that happened in an unexpected way or things i have never asked for..

Got kicked out of the Squad to Australia..
I've no mood to train for the school like i used to..
Maybe after the tournament in Australia, I'll train up to my best..

Short say:
I've wrote a song..
I was about to sing..
When the light from the candle goes off..
By the wind that wasn't even there..
Maybe it wasn't meant to be..

The light of fire from that candle..
Was the only hope of me getting through the darkness..
Even it didnt help me out..

In the dark..
I can't play my song as the guitar wasn't at sight..
I'm left sitting in the hollow room..

I opened the matchbox..
There was none..
The only matchstick that already lit the candle..

Now the light has escaped..
And the song is gone..
I hope its gone for good, maybe its not..

But I had wished..
The light to give me the chance for me to escape..
From the dark and the empty sight..
But, I hadn't had the chance..

And I wish..
The light will come back..
The song really meant a lot to me..
I'm sorry..I just wanted to sing you the song..


Now, I am thinking and staring at the screen..
Not knowing what to write..
Hadn't been a happy start to being 18..

Sounds of evil calling my name..
To come and join them and forget those days..
I can't believe it, they had fun..
Now i wanna know.. Is it already time?

I'm sorry if my explanation of my life has to be not direct..
I feel comfortable expressing myself in those words above..

I have been nice..
For that, things never had been the way i wanted..
Not even one single thing..
I tend to sing my feelings by playing the guitar..
And have always been playing the guitar late at night..
Thats bad..

I've been late for school on some occassions..
I havent been eating a lot like i used to..
I havent been praying hard.. to be honest..
I havent been on the best i can be..
Empty..

Why God? Why?
I have been nice..
If you want me to be this way, I'll accept it..
I just pray things would be a lot easier for me..

I had wished you can make things a lot easier for me.. yes you..

Feelings I dont play with..
Friendship I nvr take em for granted..

F.Y.I:
I don't cheat on girls..
I had been bad in the past..
But i hadn't slept with anyone and never will, till my wife..
I am honest..
So should you..
I like to be direct.. but not abt my feelings..
If i had, it is from my honesty..

The only person hearing me is ONE..
You gave me your time..
Listening abt me as i do listening abt you..
Thank you.. I really appreciate that..


I WISH TODAYS HAVE BEEN BETTER LIKE I ALWAYS WISH EVERY MORNING..

On a brighter note..
Watched Harry Potter with Shamin,Hafiz and Adnan.. Damn crack of the jokes.. Fun man..
And went out past weekend with my secondary school friends for hari raya..
Nin had all the jokes and had 10 best jokes i ever know is from that day..
Totally awesome..