I feel real tired today.. I dont know why.. Maybe its bcuz i didnt sleep well last nite.. I have lotsa things going in my mind that i dont have a reason why.. I thought about lotsa things staring in the dark.. But not to worry, i am okay.. Just things get overwhelmed in the brain..

What i did today is.. I went to Friday Prayers then home.. Slightly in the evening, i went for work.. Looked forward to a new staff at work.. Suprisingly turn 6, its someone i knew from school.. He said he had a good first day like no place else.. Thats a good start for him.. Just been working there over 2 months, i'd seen ppl stay and leave for all sorts of reasons.. I hope more staff will be in soon.. Making new friends are a sense of achievement for me..

Clocled out at 11pm and went straight to the bus stop to home.. Met an old friend there, so we talked.. She asked me abt me and stuff like how things are going on and school and everything.. And you know what, that question that i've not long to hear came out of her mouth.. "So how's your girlfriend?".. I answered, "I've no girlfriend.." And just like any drama you watch on television, she said "Serious?! Why not? Go find lah.." and her bus came right after that sentence.. Reality hit me and got me realising that i have a bad love life for a healthy straight teenager.. haha.. Its not bothering, but having to miss the feeling of teenagers' love.. I predict it would be a waste.. After a bus ride long of imagination and unusual thinking.. I came out with a happy mind that I have been doing alright being like this.. Having a girlfriend may or may not have an effect, be it negative or positive.. So i wouldn't complain.. I'll just wait and be patient for that moment to come.. Being wild and reckless over a slight situation from a question, it wouldn't help my cause.. I'm sure there's someone out there from somewhere out there.. I'll meet her..

So here i am writing this post which more of my friends would appreciate of me telling abt my life rather than talking abt anything else.. I'm amazed at some things in life, well something not new to me.. I have ppl in mind i wanna keep for long and some that don't matter that much to me.. well, to name the ppl that dont matter much to me, i can count with my fingers.. Sometimes, being nice isn't a satisfying feeling.. won't you agree? Especially to egos and selfish and foul-mouthed ppl who think they are on top of the world.. I dont understand why such ppl are ard..

I have this fear of bursting out my anger.. I havent been seriously mad at anything.. I mean, i do feel angry when certain things happened against me.. I seem to take it easy and just keep it.. And some i had forgotten either forgiven.. But I dont have yet a limit to my anger.. So i am afraid that the limit might be somewhere near.. But for what i know, I dont have the intention to scold or foul-mouth my friends if they had did anything wrong or make decisions not to my predictions.. I dont use foul language other than means of jokes to friends, but on some occasions when they use it against me on a serious note.. My rage of anger and the boil of blood seems to have complete control over me.. Its hard to control that kind of temper.. But i kept quiet and pretended nothing happen.. But those situations will replay themselves on my mind and i am afraid if it happened again.. I will burst that anger out and cause things i dont want it to happen.. I havent had a fist on someone's face.. And i hope it never happens.. What good do violence have.. Dont just because that i am against violence, i'm weak..
I have a friend who thinks he is unstoppable when he is angry.. Some days i just wish I can tell it straight to his face that he just is lucky to have good friends that can take his stupid words that comes out from his mouth and he's nothing without his friends.. and some day i wish this fist of mine or someone else will knock him out cold just to shut his bloody mouth.. Sure he had a bad day, doesnt mean he can take it out on other ppl.. Have respect dude.. Other ppl too have bad days.. Just like me.. If i had a bad day( the song bad day is playing in my mind now), I would prefer to talk to my friend or my siblings abt it rather than taking it out on innocent ppl around me.. right? So if you are reading this bloody post my friend.. Stuck it in your bloody brain..

I'm against mockery in my blog.. But this is exceptional..

Till the next time ppl..