Stop smoking wasn't an easy thing to do.. sometimes everwhere i go their offers for ciggies fly around my ear.. Well, maybe for the none smokers saying 'no' is an easy answer.. But for former smokers, its not as easy like it seems.. But to prove my worth and my words to her and for the good of myself.. Saying 'no'to another stick is all worthwhile..

I've conquered more of myself and the determination in me wasn't this strong if i were 2 or 3 years ago.. I realise that I always give up on myself easily without a fight to most of the problems I face.. instead of foul-mouth about it, i take those problems as challenges to grow up to be a man.. I'm leaving the 'teen' world very soon and if i don't improve my maturity, it'll not go easy for me in the future.. Its not easy if a lot of pressure comes at the same time, however having her behind me putting in hope and support in me means everything.. And to prove myself and how strong i am to her and the good of myself.. Facing the pressure and the problems are all worthwhile..

Getting respect from others is not easy this days.. Sometimes people forget the respect to elders and to people around them.. Human nowadays do things sometimes not from sincerity but for something in return.. But i am lucky, the people who gave me shelter and food and watch me grow up have respect for each other and a built understanding.. And i am not just lucky, i am blessed with a girl that shares with me her life and moments together with me.. I feel the respect from her and she has gained the utmost respect from me for being a wonderful lady in my life.. I've made a lot of promises to her and i'll keep those promises like my life is depending on them.. All of my words to her are honest and doing it is all worthwhile..

Me and lovely Hannah

At a board games cafe

Me and lovely Hannah

Going to dinner

Me and lovely Hannah

Having dinner at Lau Pa Sat

The weekends was fun and we had a whole day of laughter and craziness.. like me walking with bended knees so lovely Hannah don't have to look up talking to me, walking like that all they way to the toilet.. Challenging each other who can open up the cockles first.. Playing board games and i am starting to like scrabble already.. hehe..

I appreciate technology so much now cuz i get to webcam with lovely Hannah at home or at her workplace.. and calling her is free now since i start using skype to talk to her.. all free! hehe.. And like right here.. I can tell everyone how wonderful are my days and sharing the day with her means all..

For my lovely Hannah,

Alfian

Ps. I made a joke that went overboard and i never ever mean it and I am really really sorry to have made that joke.. I thought it was a funny one but then after i said it, it is not funny at all.. I am sorry Hannah.. I promise not to do it again..